6.8.20

Midnight Pondering | Personal

(rooftop of The Messenger coffeehouse, Kansas City... there’s something to being able to overlook a whole city lit up under cover of night. Isn’t it beautiful?)



“Jesus didn’t need to be told, for he already knew what was in the heart of man



I just read this in the book of John the other night before heading to bed, and it hit me like a stone.  




Before I say what’s on my heart, 



He knows.  





Before I know what’s on the heart of my peers, He knows.  


Before I find out what tomorrow holds, what it doesn’t hold that I beforehand expect (can I get a witness?), yes... in my travels, in work changes, the curves or bends in relationships... He knows.  


When I’m hurt by another’s weakness, when my own requires an apology: He knows, and He knew when I didn’t.


What makes my life complete, whole, SET APART from the “old” man I would be, the dead man I would be, the joyless, peace-less, purposeless, strength-less woman I would be: 


It’s that at all times, HE KNOWS.


It’s part of the grand adventure of the Christian life: that we’re not always in the know! Jesus knew; God knows.  Both when I do myself, and when I don’t. There’s no more hiding, when in the light of His greatness you realize there’s nothing to hide - it’s all already seen.  There’s less surprise at turns of events, because we know who’s at the helm and who has been standing there all along with sure footing.  There’s no more dismay when one is in question, because He knows already and wants to be sought!




Ah to live THIS life!! The life in which He — the Captain of our hearts — knows, and we love living that way.  Dependent, not always in the know... and in this, at rest and exceedingly happy.


He is sovereign, and He is indeed sufficient.


Sunday afternoon exploring is so much fun with this girl! We may be 14 years apart — but it’s such a gift 🎁 


<3 Anna

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